And so, the love of my life...my fiancee of three years has betrayed me. I called a couple weeks ago on a Weds night and she said she loved me. Then on a Sunday of that same week, I call and some guy picks up her cell phone. He has never heard of me, or me of him. He says he's in love with her and that she's not there. Suspcious much? I'm patient and forgiving though and I simply tell him to have her call me. She never does. I get worried. I text her, call her, im her, and email her...no response whatsoever. I don't even know if she's alive for gods sakes. I'm past anger though by now and am in fear and sorrow. I love her with all my heart and hope she's alright. And so, now yet again...I grace you with a poem.

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 How can I live without You?

I've spent every moment of my life,

Thinking you were mine.

Thinking we were meant to be.

Yet now, I hear only silence where

Your love was to be.

Alone I weep and pray

Only for you.

My love, I crave to know Your well.

All I think of is You.

All I dream of is You.

You are my world...my love...and my very soul aches for you.

I thought we were more than just friends,

I thought we were mates for ever and ever.

You're on my mind every night,

My heart beats only to hear you again.

My body aches for your touch.

My soul weeps from your silence.

What have I done to deserve this pain?

To deserve your lies and silence?

All I sought to do was love you.

All I want is to please you.

My Master, my mate, and my love...

In you I was complete.

Alone my heart is barren and my dreams stale.

Your fucked up. I know your making this shit up in your head

If I wasn't telling the truth, why would I post it? Honestly...idiot it happened. Hurt like shit. And who the hell are you that you even check my journal? No one else does.

You ARE making this up. "my fiancee of three years..." You have got to be mentally ill or something. Who is this girl your talking about? "Tyia?" "Katrina?" Or what about one of the others from the long list of people you've made up in your head. I can name them all if you want. But three years ago, huh? Well I guess that was about the time you started talking about Steve Pearson. Didn't Steve end up being a woman that you supposedly moved to Texas for?

You see Rachael, I know alot more about you than you think!